In my psychotherapy session today, I explored what holds me back from being the person I know I can be. I had great insight into my fears and anxieties and old patterns that have held me back all my life, including ‘old voices’ that say – “who do you think you are?”, “what will people say?” and “you are not able for this”.

 I am enough

It reminded me of Marianne Williamson’s quote from her book, A Return To Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles, Harper Collins, 1992. From Chapter 7, Section 3 (Pg. 190-191).

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

This is easy to read, difficult to live. In my session I had the image of an eagle sitting on a cliff edge and my therapist and I laughed at this being my new “spiritual, indigenous name” i.e. ‘Eagle on Cliff-Edge’. I also heard myself say “if I want to fly, I only have to spread my wings”.  How wonderful!

I am looking forward to centring myself in love and expanding out of my comfort zone by expressing myself more fully. This week I endeavour to live from a place of authenticity by expressing my feelings honestly, wearing what gives me pleasure, eating foods that nourish my physical body and supporting balance in my workload. Having fun is also in my diary this week.